Done

I try not to believe it u know, but when everything in the world paves one path for me I have no choice. I alone can't fight that force.

‎​I think we are all governed by a force far greater than we can imagine. I can try and try, but there reach a point when I have to turn my focus elsewhere.

Academia is not for me. I'm just glad that I'm able to get my undergrad. But going further I just can't. I know my limits and I've pushed it to get this far. Not much of an accomplishment but it was a hell of a mountain to climb.

‎​I never have any luck. Even when I'm not doing anything wrong the world just seems to take a dump on me. How is it that of all the people that night I am the only one stabbed. How is that of all the medicaid applications, mine gets lost, it cannot be denied that this kid stabbed me but the law will not punish him.

‎​Why is it that it cost me $150 and self labor to get a $27 vehicle inspection, every year?

‎​Why is that every winter I have to fix this god damn house?

‎​I'm god's bastard child.

‎​I know I sound like a spoiled brat but I'm happy to have a roof over my head. My life is nothing like those who are suffering in Haiti.

I'm venting I'm sorry I hold a lot in. But this is all just the surface. I am not blessed. I count on myself. And when "myself" can't hang. I'm done.